Life isn't about the breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away...

Saturday, July 3, 2021

After 10 1/2 Years, I'm Signing Off.....

 

Almost 11 years ago, my excited husband moved his not so excited-and-expectant wife to Arkansas.  Arkansas...  What in the WORLD was there in Arkansas?!?!  Little did I know, as I choked back the morning sickness, and packed up our things from our cute, little St Louis apartment, what an adventure was on the horizon.  Little did I know....

Seeing that we were moving even FURTHER from family in Indiana, I wanted to somehow stay close, especially as our family expanded beyond our fur babies.  A blog came to mind.  A place to put my thoughts, and the pictures, and capture the moments as they happen to share with family and eventually- to look back on with my own children.  

Heartbeats and Hiccups.

I came up with this as I feel life is full of both: the great moments- the heartbeats of life- and the hiccups- the unplanned, and the uncertain.  Somehow, put together, it becomes this perfect dance of life.  In those early days, this blog was my journal of sorts: talking about all the pregnancy feelings, of our very first house, of living in a brand new area and "starting from scratch".  Over the years, it became much more to me as I fell in LOVE with Arkansas, the village we've created here, and the moments we've had that make this place Home.  It was my outlet, my calm, my therapy I called it- ha!  It has been there through all the births... all the moves... all the heartache... all the crazy.  

I have enjoyed telling our story on here.  I look back on here constantly for reference of events, pictures of funny moments I want to remind the girls of, pictures of moments not only locked in my memory, but here- in a vulnerable place- for me to share with the words to describe it in that moment. 

But now, as my girls are all in school now and a little bit older, I feel like I'm not the only one telling the stories anymore.  We are walking this journey together, Pete, I and the girls.  My favorite conversations always begin with "Remember when...".  We all add our thoughts to the memory and THAT'S when the magic happens- ya, I know.... nerd alert.

So, with all that being said, even though my husband feels otherwise, I feel like this is a good place for me to stop WRITING the story and honestly, just live it. We will keep on walking the walk, stumbling through the chaos, cheering through some days, while crying through others.  The difference is, that our girls are old enough to help me tell the stories, sort the pictures, and put together their own versions of the memories.  Maybe my storytelling well rub off and we'll put journals and scrapbooks together, but for now.... 


...kinda enjoying watching these three take the lead.  Lord knows what they're going to get into, but I'm sure Pete and I are in for a treat.  HAHA.  This blog has been nothing short of amazing and something I will cherish forever.

Heartbeats and Hiccups, Over and Out.

All Three Owls!!!!

So, the moment has come... my youngest child is heading to kindergarten.  A bit surreal for sure.  It for sure feels like yesterday that I was cuddling her in the hospital just after she was born.  Most days, time is FLYING, but the day of her Open House, I just wanted time to stand still for a moment.  I wanted to take it all in.  I wanted HER to be able to take it all in.  And know that her dad and I were right there with her as she began this next part of her journey.

I was grateful for friends helping with the other two so Pete and I could go together to the school.  Open House was different this year.  Due to COVID we were let in a family at a time to see the classroom and meet her teacher.  Evelyn is so confident and brave, but I could tell she felt SO SPECIAL having her parents to herself for that big moment.

Evelyn & Mrs. Grant
Evelyn bonded with her from those first moments.  It was like a sense of calm washed over her as she talked with Mrs. Grant as if "I know I'm going to be ok, she'll take good care of me".

And that she did (looking back almost a year later from that Open House;))
Evelyn lucked out with this one.  Mrs Grant had been teaching for quite some time, had 4 boys of her own, and was a calm and loving force for Evelyn.  She took these itty bitties under her wing and led them through a crazy pandemic school year, somehow without adding worry or chaos.  Evelyn came home constantly telling us about what she learned, and more importantly, the relationships she was forming with peers and staff.  Awesome watching HER spread her wings all on her own.  No sisters guiding her through or overshadowing her.  Although shy at first, it was amazing to watch her come into her own...

First Day of School 2020
...at least for Harper and Maggie;)

 
Harper started 4th grade with Mrs Oropeza and Maggie started 1st grade with Ms Canter!

Maggie was SO excited to see Ms Canter again!!!!

Cheesin' for the camera... day one and already mask off- glasses off- HA!

 
Since the start days were staggered between the 1st-4th graders and the kindergardeners, I was able to spend a few more days with Evelyn, just the two of us: we rode bikes, baked, and played LOTS of games!!!  She was becoming the Uno master- ha!  Nothing says waiting in carline like a good card game-haha!!

And THEN, Thursday came.  All THREE together heading to school for the first time!!


Here we are..... all three.
Harper, 9, Maggie, 6, and Evelyn, 5.
Fourth, First, and Kindergarten.
Evening Star Elementary
Only time EVER they will be in the same school.  They were so excited.  Harper is usually so nervous about the first day, but this year it didn't even seem on her radar.  She was all about taking care of her sisters: wearing a friendship bracelet with Evelyn so she knew she was with her all day if she got nervous, wheeling Maggie down to her classroom.  Those girls are lucky to have such a thoughtful big sister.  And I am a lucky... and sappy mommy... as I watch my 3 babies head into school.  No idea what lies ahead for this school year, BUT they're doing it together- one day at a time;).

One day at a time.





Closing Out Summer 2020

 Once we got back from Indiana, we settled back in to enjoy the last bit of summer before school started back up!

 
Harper was able to celebrate her birthday with her bestie, Nora (3 months late) at the house with matching pjs, American Girl dolls, and pizza- they were in Heaven.  Not AS much fun, was Harper finally getting a couple teeth pulled to help with crowding in her mouth.  She was a trooper- seriously- and wore that bandage with ice, without issue.  I mean, she was pretty content to have extra, ahem, "needed" quiet time playing xbox- ha!

The garden was doing well!  This year we decided to add wildflowers to the mix and we LOVED it!!!!

 
We still had some yummy veggies- zucchinis for DAYS, but Pete kinda fell in love with all the pretty flowers and the pretty birds and bugs that came as well!!  I sense a redo of flowers happening from now on in that garden-ha;).

The kittens finished their shots and were finally allowed out to "roam about the cabin"- ha!  They were sloooooow to venture out and preferred our master bedroom to being anywhere else.  The best part was watching the bond the kittens and Pete formed.  Katie LOVES Pete, Chloe rolls over for him to rub her belly, and Teddy (who's scared of everything), "talks" to Pete whenever he is home- her incessant meows are adorable.  My not-cat-loving husband was coming around it seems...

 
Last step in kittenhood: getting spayed.  Poor babies were NOT fond of the silly cones, and were little escape artists at first, wiggling out of them whenever we weren't looking...

 
...but they DID it and are free and clear in the house.  Gosh we already love these 3 furballs so much!!!

Lastly, before the school year began, we went on a fact finding mission with Mags.  She was having neurological episodes that resembled seizures and we wanted to understand them better.  To St. Louis we went for a week-long in-patient EEG.

 

Nana and Papa swooped in to help with Harper and Evelyn so Pete and I could split the week-long hospital stay.  

Side note: I said goodbye to the girls and ventured out to get some dinner for Maggie and I.  Took a turn a bit too quickly and busted both tires on the right side of the van-ugh!  What a mess, but was grateful to my parents for turning around, keeping us safe while we waited for a tow, and for getting Maggie and I to a rental car.  Goodness, never a dull moment.

 
Away the girls went to Camp Nana & Papa for the week....
Having.  A.  Blast.  

SO darn grateful to my family for not only taking care of my crew when asked, but for all the fun they bring... gosh, it pays off to have an artist/art teacher as a sister!!!!

We settled in nicely to our home away from home for a week.  St Louis Children's Hospital treated us well.  Maggie wasn't super excited about the leads going on her head, but once it was done she was set.... 
We brought toys, all her favorite foods, and literally had Katy Perry on repeat the whole time.

 
Icing on the cake: Nana packed a "Christmas in July Santa Sack" of gifts for Maggie to open every day.  It was her favorite part- she got soooooo excited to open the gifts each day and show them off to the nurses- haha!
Mom, your idea was genius and meant so much to me- you look out for my bunch ALWAYS and it means the world to me.




My favorite part: having some one-on-one with my middle child.  It's rare these days, and I loved playing playdough, cuddling, and singing with her.  She even wanted to hold my hand- ahhhhh- YES, Maggie Lou, I will cuddle with you all day long!!

On Thursday, my better half arrived.  It was so great to see Pete (he stayed in Arkansas to work the first half of the week).  He was there to do the last part of the EEG stay so I could head to Indy to spend a couple days with family, before meeting him back home in Arkansas that weekend.

I don't think I slept well in the hospital, because I got to my parent's house and literally slept for 13 hours- ha!  I spent those couple days resting and eating and resting some more.  Nothing like having my mom around to put the pieces together for me while I crashed- ha!  My village came in strong that week- STRONG!

After a long week of travel, we spent the last few weeks of summer just being together.  
I think the sisters missed Maggie a bit... they wanted her to be a part of all the games and all the playtime!!  I kinda loved the three enjoying being together again- sweet sisters.

Maggie is getting stronger and stronger with her walking!  It's amazing.  She actually asks for it and we've started taking her into therapies/appointments using her walker rather than her wheelchair.  It's fun to cheer her on, but that first day she WALKED out of therapy in her walker- wow.  Tears.  Was so special to me that a friend of mine was there too, just as teary and happy as I was.  Special needs moms- they get it.  They are there for the rough stuff.  There through the confusing.  And there to cheer and cry alongside you through the exciting.

 
Little Bear MAY be starting kindergarten in a few weeks... being a big girl and all that... but she STILL is the BEST cuddler.  She is the first one to crawl into my lap when I'm on the couch, and the first one to hold that hug just a bit longer.  For as fiesty and stubborn as she is, I hope that part is always there- her love of loving...

Girls busied themselves with making homemade dog treats for the neighborhood dogs...

 
...and loving on all the horses at Zuriel Stables.  Harper brushes and pets them.  Evelyn comes armed with treats for the horses and pig alike- she is DETERMINED that Gus love her- ha!

Cake decorating: quickly becoming a COVID pasttime, they love mixing up all kinds of colors and adding lots of toppings- ha!  Easy and fun... and hilarious to see them get competitive over it- ha!

Papa Bear is getting pretty good at the hair cuts!!  One of the COVID situations we opted out of, taking kids to get their hair cut, so a couple you tube searches and a fresh pair of scissors later and we are DOING it- haha!


COVID is crazy.  Keeping things fun and exciting while maintaining safety has been challenging, BUT I think we've had some good times together.  We've learned how to MAKE our fun, be more tolerant of each other, and grow closer- I know.... I know... cliche.  But seriously, being a part of a pandemic is surreal.  We are learning as we go, praying for safety and calm of everyone, and grateful for all the health care professionals and teachers working their BUNS off to keep things running in the right direction.  No idea what this school year holds for this crew, but I am channeling all the patience and understanding I got and just moving one day at a time.

One day at a time...



4th of July 2020 from Adios!!

 July came and the Lee crew was able to get out of dodge for a bit!  We packed all the masks, antibacterial, and food and HIT THE ROAD!!!  We were more than ready to have some family time, so to Indiana we went!

The beginning of July is pretty fun back home: my birthday being on the 4th and my youngest sister's, Anna, (who's due date WAS my birthday-ha) is on the 9th.  It a solid week of shenanigans and oh-so-fun!

And the man who's always down for shenanigans: Papa- haha!!  

He's always there to lick icing beaters....

Wheel his human wheelbarrows, I mean grand children, around the house....

...and bring out all the funny faces to make you laugh!  These girls sure do love this guy;).

I even got to go for a ride just the two of us in his '65 Mustang.  It was all fun and games in the convertable until we got caught in a pop up rain storm and had to manually put the top back on- haha!!

Love you, Dad.
Thanks for always bringing the fun and being the bestest Papa around;).

 
Always so fun celebrating with this crew....


Especially when there are fireworks involved!!  
My mom made all the yummy food including TWO separate birthday cakes- DELICIOUS- and Pete brought the fireworks... little bit on the down-low as the caliber of Arkansas fireworks versus Indiana are a bit different- they do it BIG in the south.  Cops weren't called, the right items went up in flames, and we had a blast- literally- HA!

3... 2... 1... BANG!!!!

...a little firepower
...and a little drink power- Thanks, Natalie!!

 
The rest of our visit was spent just hanging at home as a family.  We had so much fun just being altogether in the same zipcode again.  Amazing how we made it happen and it felt so darn good to just soak it all up together.

...crowding the couch...

...enjoying the Aunts and Uncles;).


Happy 37th Birthday to me!
Can't believe it, but somehow, during a pandemic, we all came together to celebrate.  Adios Pass did not disappoint.  
Mom, you totally outdid yourself- all the special details to make it so great.  I love you- thank you.  
Cheers to being together, staying safe, and keeping our health during this crazy year!!!

Happy 4th of July, 2020!!!!